I am really struggling right now. For the first time in my life, I don't like school. I honestly don't understand it. It is very weird and is throwing off every aspect of my life.
I am very frustrated with school. I am also very frustrated with work. The students who work for me are on my last nerve. I'm not sure if this is a product of their performance or my frustration with life.
I'm frustrated with wedding planning. It is never ending and there are never any good solutions for all the problems we all have.
I'm needy. I am usually the one to arrange events and gatherings with friends. I LOVE doing this, I just can't right now. We are all busy. I know that. My busy is not any worse than your busy. But I need friends and people around me and I can't arrange it. So please, even if it's just a text, reach out to me.
I never want to be that girl. I don't want to talk about my wedding because people always complain about people talking about their weddings. I don't want to complain because then people don't want to be around you. I don't want to be needy because that's annoying.
Sucks to suck.
p.s. Even when people have good reasons for not being able to attend things, I still get really sad and upset. This makes me feel pathetic. I know it's not their fault, but I still do.
Here ends the miserable story of the day I cried at work. In front of my coworkers and boss. In a conference room with glass walls. With half of the student population walking by.
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